Anybody remember Hee Haw? Yeah, well, it was a few decades ago. And maybe it was only in Tennessee. Well anyway, I was not very old, but I remember watching it at my grandma’s house. If you ever saw the show, you recognize the title to this post. This is a song that pops in my head at some of the most inappropriate times. Like my brain is trying to protect my sanity. In my memory, my dad walks around singing it happily. That may or may not have happened (sorry, Daddy), but that’s who is singing it in my head today. When I thought about posting about the last few years of my life, this song popped in my head again. Today I just want to hit the high (actually low) points, so you have a pencil-drawn map of the road I traveled to get here – not exact, possibly slightly crooked, but it will give you an idea of where we’re headed.
In October of 2014, our life on the Double E changed forever. That sounds super dramatic, I know, but honestly it changed everything. My father-in-law had a massive heart attack. He and my mother-in-law were keeping my son every day at the time. That was about to change, along with a lot of other things for us and my little one. We spent several days at the hospital crying and praying in the cafeteria. He had open heart surgery and thankfully, is still mending fences and tending his garden today. At the time I wasn’t very familiar with heart attacks. I knew they told us he had a “widow-maker” and that was bad, but I didn’t understand the damage it caused and the way it would affect the day to day for him and by extension the whole family. It was a hard time.
Fast forward 6 months…my husband and I, well mainly I, decided it was a good time to try to have another baby. Life had settled back down, I thought, and I wasn’t getting any younger. I say try because our son is here by the grace of God. That is a fact. Long story short, in vitro fertilization is hard on a girl. But that’s a story for another day. So we began that process in April. The first week of May, my dad had a massive heart attack. If I hadn’t been living it myself, I wouldn’t have believed how eerily similar this was to our time six months before. Same heart attack, same floor of the hospital, same absolute disbelief and fear. Same crying and praying. This time we were more knowledgeable, but no less afraid. I’d love to know the odds of two people this closely related both surviving 100% blockages and a heart attack aptly named a widow-maker. It’s still hard to believe how very fortunate we are. Luckily my dad didn’t have to have open heart surgery, but today both our dads sport matching defibrillators. I liked to tell people it was the accessory of the season. They didn’t seem as amused as I was.
Fast forward six months…after a truly miserable six months of stress over my dad while trying to make my stupid body cooperate with my once well-laid plan, our doctor suggested a “Hail Mary” of sorts. It didn’t work. Again, a story for another day.
Six weeks later, on December 23, 2015, a tornado destroyed our small town. My husband and I were in the basement with our in-laws, our 80 year old grandmother, our 4 year old and our trusted blue heeler as the tornado passed over the house. The destruction was, and still is, indescribable. The fact that no one lost their life that night is a miracle in itself. Add that one to the list of stories for another day.
Fast forward six months…my sweet nephew was born on April 15, 2016. Three days later our family crowded around him to both meet him for the first time and say our good-byes. There are no words. He was buried on my birthday.
Life has continued on that six month cycle for a while now. To the point I start dreading the days as I realize another half year has passed. When you tell people these stories, they don’t even know how to respond. I can’t blame them. But we carry on. Maybe we carry on carefully, sometimes with something close to fear, but we do it nonetheless.
I am not sharing these things to get your sympathy or pity; I don’t need or want it. I simply want you to see this side of me. Because I intend to share A LOT of funnier things along the way, but you can’t fully appreciate the mountaintop if you forget the valleys. Man I sound like I know what I’m doing. And I totally do not. The reality is sometimes you have to laugh to keep from crying. Who knew that was a fact and not just a weird quote?